New beginning

I am proud to announce that I have accepted a new job. I have accepted a nursing job in a level III NICU. It will be extremely challenging and I am so nervous about starting. I have always wanted to work in an environment like that and had planned to one day but always put the plans of being a wife and mom first. Since becoming engaged to John the goals on the forefront of my mind have been being a good wife, growing our family, and raising our children. My goals are very different now and I am still trying to figure out what my goals include. I want to find a purpose for myself again. My purpose is no longer being a wife and creating what I am sure what would have been the most beautiful Ortega babies. I want to find something to set goals for and to grow myself as a person and as a nurse. I want to move from this stagnancy that has become my life. In church we have been doing a series called "unstuck." Some days I feel very stuck in life. I wake up, go to work, come home, there isn't much change day to day. This is my way of getting myself unstuck. I am determined to move forward and create change and a challenge for myself. This is the exact challenge I need for myself. I am beyond excited to begin this new journey. I prayed a lot about this opportunity before accepting. I very much love the people I work with currently and it will be painful to leave them but I know the relationships that I have grown while there will continue outside of work and continue to grow. I am excited for the new challenges and education I will receive. I can now throw myself completely into this new career   This is the time in my life when I can be completely selfish and think about only myself. Since I was 15 almost all my choices involved Johnathon as a factor. Now they still do but in a different way. It isn't how will this choice affect him? Its more of will this make him smile? Will this make him proud? And I think the answer to all of these for this new choice is yes. I know he is proud I am following my dreams and I know he will be there watching me and cheering me on from Heaven. He always was one to continue to push me to achieve all that I could. So honey, I hope you are smiling down on me and I hope I continue to make your proud as I journey through this life and as I take my first steps on this newest journey. So here's to the magic of new beginnings.