I came across this quote and couldn't help but sit back and reflect upon what it meant to me. I currently sit here studying for an exam for my new job I had mentioned earlier in the blog. I think to myself how did I get to this place? I have accepted what I have always considered to be my dream job. This could be my calling? This could be Gods greater plan for my life. Once again I will say that I liked my old plan but maybe somehow this one will be better? At this moment in my grief process I highly doubt it but I am relying on God as he has taken me this far already. Approaching the 5 month mark this weekend and it seems like tragedy struck just yesterday. I feel some days I am back in the guest bed of my parents house covered in tears the morning I came back from the hospital for the last time and other days I feel I can see the hope and see the light at the end of this struggle. Some days are good and some days are bad but at the end of each day I try to remind myself that this is Gods will and his plan. I will trust him and know he works for all things good and beautiful. Keeping this quote close to me as I venture off into this new job journey and will remember that this immense pain could just be the beginning of my calling in this life. Just thought I would share a little ray of hope for those who are also struggling with the common question of "what am I supposed to gain from this?" I still try to figure out Gods plan but ultimately I will not know the answer to that what am I supposed to gain question until I am able to meet him face to face. And I pray that when that day comes I will be able to get on my knees and tell him thank you. Until then I will continue to chase the calling he has for me to help make the pain worthwhile. 
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